Because I work with words, and you do too,
you ask me to come stand with you today,
thinking the words that bind usand they do
have brought us close enough for you to say
with confidence that you know how I feel
at such a time as this, at such a time
when I can hardly find a word thats real
enough, can hardly find a sensate rhyme
to start to say I dont know what to think,
may never know, but know enough to know
I cannot stand with those who march, spill ink,
and protest, or with those who scream to go
and kill and kill. My occupations gone
if I cannot be poet without being sure
always of what to say, what should be done.
Its different for some. Their answers pure
and simple, and I understand. Im glad,
though mystified. They are so sure whats right.
They have the faith that I have never had.
In place of it Ive doubts that make me write
and question, write, and doubt, and ask again
about all this. Friends, how can I explain?
I cannot stand with you. This much is clear:
I hold you dear. I hold my doubts more dear.
This article originally appeared in The New Criterion, Volume 23 Number 2, on page 37
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